Sunday, November 23, 2008

I still havent found what I am looking for!!

Often this thought - when will i find my girl??- trespasses the ambit of my gray matter :) How will she be? At times i even feel that i should have my fiance - a girl in my life who can understand all my varying moods, with whom i can stand through the thick and thin. The moment i think deeper into this, reality slaps me, saying "YOU AINT TAT MATURE AS TO SOMEONE CAN ENTRUST HER LIFE TO U!!". I do not know whether its being single for 26 years that emotes out or its just that i havent taken life as seriously as some of my other friends who are already engaged. Frankly speakingly,I STILL HAVENT FOUND WOT I AM LOOKING FOR!! :)

To be a bit more frank on this, i am a kinda dumbo when it comes to all these things. I have seen some of my friends who were really good at flirting and they ended up being boyfriends and later hubbies.Damm, i envy them!! How can you strike a conversation with a girl whom u dont even know??

The other day i was in CCD with my friends. The moment i turned to my right i watched a couple who were at their zenith of wot i call, PDA-ism (public display of affection). The guy was caressing the girl's hand. The next thing we saw was, the girl taking out a paper napkin and then wiping off some remains of chocolate on the guy's hand. She then found out some pieces remaining on his chin, i guess, and so there it was on the guy's chin. THAT WASNT IT!!! She found some more pieces on the guy's lips and there it was (paper napkin :)), rolling on the guy's lips. Oh, so u think tat was it???? Nehhhhh. It was later rolled onto his nose. My conscience was yelling from deep beneath - "Now stuff that paper into his nose and cleanse off his mucus, u bugger!!!! (YUKKKKK!!)" Dam!!!!Had the girl been working in BMC she would have received the best seeper award, for sure!!It was one heck of a PDA i had seen. Trust me, if i would have been that guy i would have been embaressed to the core.I would have asked her to stick that papernapkin on my face and left the CCD. Gosh, i m lucky to be single :) :).

Still, the thought drives me curious, that there is some girl right here (in this world) right now (at this moment) who will be with me for the rest of my life!!!

17 comments:

Priyanka Sareen said...

Someone Somewhere is Made For You!!
this holds true..i guess u need to be more patient to gt the best lady's hand in urs..Single dsnt mean dat ur nt mature enough or blah blah..it simply means dat till date no o ne matches ur cali and more important here 'You'..Even im a pro fr being single and wud lay stress fr ppl to stay better spinsters or bachelors bt fr ppl who genuinely respect der descisions and relationship,proably ill respect too the same:)
Now cming to the PDA--Boss dats nt at all my cup of coffee..I say bike ride or a drive in car is more than u can offer:)...Can get naughty bt den to everything ders an appropriate tym amd place..
Preet,,wen ur in love everything jst sets ryt bt it may sound cliche to all thos ewho read this bt yes all my dear frnds this grandeur is too short lived..its like a fire worm:(
So y to gv urself such a pain and then feel guilty of urself the whole lyf dat u didnt do this or u didnt do dat or if u wud have done dat might be that the things wud have wrked out fr ya and wat not!!!!
Affection in all its form is respected cs dats wat tells one dat u care:P...Nw poor soul in CCD who is being narrated here..She actuallt is nt bothered fr guys and gals arnd as--
"Love is tragic
Love is bold
You will always do what you are told
Love is hard
Love is strong
You will never say that you were wrong
Love is color
Love is love
Love is never saying you're too proud
Love is trusting
Love is honest
Love is not a hand that holds you down "
Now this is fr all those my dear frnds who really abide by the love kasam dat de tk on each other else fr me--"Love is sure better when it's gone
Because you wanted more
More than I could give
More than I could handle
And a life that I can't live"...

~G said...

Guess I should just dig into the archives and paste our chat conversation here :P
Anyway, I think people resort to PDA typically when they are insecure in a relationship. But since you want me to comment I would say that small things like the twinkle in your eye/the dumb smile on ur face/the dil going dhak dhak...these are the things that make your life real good ;)
Worth a try, I'd say preet.. Really.. And as cliched as it may sound, here is something "It is better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all" :P
And I know your secrets, so stop fooling yourself. Get it?

Esoterically Yours said...

@G:Dunno abt this "It is better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all". If it happens with me i will b left crippled!!.... and kya secrets bey??????? bachhe ko dara kyon rahi hai???? ha????

Esoterically Yours said...

@priyanka sareen: wow, tats one hell of a gyan for me :)....nice!!

Unknown said...

Interesting so esoterically yours has some secrets too!! dude has been fooling us,

~G said...

@prabha: Preet is going to kill me for that line.. :D
Apparently everyone wants to know what 'secrets' these are.. hehehe.. great fun this is!! ;)

Esoterically Yours said...

@prabha: wah mere lal, comment mara hai toh kya comment mara hai!!
@gunjan: meet me on this weekend. chodoonga nahi tereko mai!! i m gonna give u a stone cold stunner!let bugs b the ref..

Unknown said...

the worst part about "sumone sumwer is waiting for u" is the amout of time u have to wait, till u get to know.. n lolz.. i know 26 yrs is quite long... dat means u have never searched for her... well watever i say applies to me too.. :D.. so no hard feelings..

As far as single or being committed, single is a Good feel, committed is a Special feel...

Its almost like, being in a lonely beautiful place with ur love of ur life, and being at Old trafford on a Champions League night with 75000fans.( i think my examples are in correct order after cross verification he he he)...
I never knew u dint even try to flirt. u wud have followed a bad but cute methodologies to flirt at some point till now.

AS far as the couple in CCD, ders nothing wrong in it... But its forbidden in India, so we need to be a bit careful o nthat.

The best feeling one will get in a relationship is when the other shows PDA.
Whn sumone shows PDA doesn't mean, they are have insecure feeling.

Nobody will feel embarrassed when sumone shows PDA, if he also truly have the same feeling.

Infact "Embarrassed" is a wrong word to use it here.. Shy myt be the correct word in my opinion...

n finally, Preet, hope u dont get to desperate and search for a girl from other world. I am glad u know she is in this world only... lolz...

Come to bangalore soon, loads of spinsters are waiting for u... just kidding... i am here to take care of them lolz.. :D

"Everything is Mutual"

Esoterically Yours said...

@Barath S: Ur definition of good feel and special feel is good but would like to make just a small correction for the special feel "being at Old trafford on a Champions League night with ur girl who is a manu fan too and may b with other 75000 fans" :) :)

Unknown said...

@Esoterically Yours - The prime idea was to differentiate, bachelors n committed fellas... :)

Priyanka Sareen said...

@barath: ill definitely support preet here..its more dn special to be at league wid the gal whos a ManU fan too:) :P

Priyanka Sareen said...

@barath:
its nt abt differentiation,,its abt realisations Soldier:P:P

Unknown said...

@priyanka - it myt be true.. but for me, nothing shud come inbetween when i am with Manutd... Not even romance... I want to be "alone with 75000 ppl..." Nothing really matters apart from Manutd, n if my gal accepts it then its fine. else i dont want her to be hurt...

In a romantic sense of blogging, i agree with u both... in a insane sense of hooliganistic manutd supporter, i still stick to my thoughts.. :)....

Priyanka Sareen said...

@Barth:-
hope the gal too z a freakon and replies u in the same volley:P

Kedar said...

I find it strange that some people fall in love numerous times while others dont fall in love even once.
People who are not in love, envy the people who are in love. Your mentioning of PDA is just a lame excuse to make you feel that not being in love is for the better.Deep down inside you too are yearning for love. (This is just an opinion, so chill..I know you are doing serious workouts but remember we are friends...[:)]. The billion dollar question remains, how does one find love? I am afraid I cant help you out with this as I too am seeking the same answer. May be a love guru or a love doctor can help us out [:)]

Esoterically Yours said...

@kedar: u know wot, any normal guy wud yearn to fall in love....tat goes well with me too :).......u can b ur own love guru...wah wah wah wah, kya dialogue mara hai!!

swati.. said...

I know its quite late to comment on this.. was jst goin thru ur old blogs... and read this...
jst curious u still hvnt found a gal ? or u really want to keep it a secret ;-)